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2026 Lament of the Indie Author

Being a writer in 2026 is weird. I mean, it might be equally valid to say that being in 2026 is weird, period. But today I wanna talk about weird writer sh*t, so … yeah.

I will not bore you with a litany of all the reasons why choosing to publish my first proper book in 2026 was an ill-timed decision. If I could jump into a time machine – if, you know, I had one parked outside, ready to go – I would choose literally any other time to launch myself into the indie publishing sphere. 2019 would have been a great year … but I digress. Publishing’s never been an easy industry. And then genAI came along and threw another wrench into its already complicated works. It’s a topic I’m loath to touch because the internet is foaming at the mouth about it and I value my peace. For me the issue is pretty black and white – I have not and will not use genAI for any creative endeavors whatsoever – but I see no benefit and have no interest either in justifying my own opinion or changing other people’s opinions. But there are ripple effects that are impacting all writers, regardless of their personal stance, and that’s what I want to talk about.

A lot of the concerns I’m about to address have been percolating for a while, but they were starkly illustrated in the discourse around the recent Shy Girl brouhaha. For those of you who don’t know what I’m talking about, let me quickly bring you up to speed.

Shy Girl was originally a self-published horror novel by indie author Mia Ballard, who had other self-pub titles under her belt. [Full disclosure: I have not read any of Ballard’s books and my knowledge of her is limited to the information that was circulated in the wake of the Shy Girl debacle.] The book originally came out in early 2025, and was successful enough to attract the attention of Hachette, one of the Big 5 (traditional) publishers, who acquired the rights to it and proceeded to re-issue the book under one of their imprints – first in the UK in Nov 2025, with a US release planned for April 2026.

From the start, Shy Girl was dodged by allegations of genAI use. To be clear, this occurred prior to the Hachette acquisition but seemed to pick up speed last fall, especially after a popular Booktuber made a detailed video about the book and its issues. [I watched it and found it informative, though I am not here to co-sign its conclusions since, as noted, I have not read the book myself.] Fast forward to now: the New York Times published an article documenting its investigation of the allegations against Shy Girl, stating that (based on analysis using several AI detection tools) it found “recurring patterns characteristic of AI generated text, like gaps in logic, excessive use of melodramatic adjectives and an overreliance on the rule of three.” The next day, Hachette announced that it was cancelling the US release of Shy Girl and pulling it from shelves in the UK, citing its commitment to “original creative expression and storytelling.”

This is all by way of context. I am not here to re-argue the case for or against Shy Girl. Not my circus, not my monkeys. But, as an (indie) author, I can tell you that this case is the opposite of a victory for authors – and for “original creative expression”.

First and foremost, for me, it illustrates that traditional publishers are emperors with no clothes. They might hold themselves out as the (gate)keepers of professional writing standards, but Shy Girl shows that they will happily forego any vetting or quality assurance in the pursuit of a quick buck. This case also undermines the notion that traditional publishers are reliable partners for authors. They were happy to exploit Ballard’s popularity only to subsequently hang her out to dry when it became clear that she was more of a public liability than an asset. Again, this is not a question of whether the allegations against the book are true or not. It’s about the fact that Hachette acquired this book in the first place, only to turn around later and decide that it did not live up to its commitment to “original creative expression and storytelling.” Wasn’t it their job to figure that out beforehand? And if they’re not doing their job, what’s the benefit for an author of signing with a trad publisher?

Let me put it this way: it seems pretty clear Hachette did zero or minimal editing on this book, or else presumably they would have noticed its ‘questionable’ patterns long before now. That doesn’t exonerate Ballard if, indeed, she used genAI. But editing is one of the fundamental jobs of a traditional publisher; it’s why authors pursue trad pub, so they don’t have to pay for their own professional editing out of pocket. Forget AI for a second. A publisher who doesn’t edit a book – for basic grammar and formatting, if nothing else – is doing a disservice to both the author and the readers. If they are not doing their job, why are they getting paid?

Second, this case reinforces the public perception of self-published works as “slop” and, more pertinently, as “probably AI slop”, which hurts indie authors in several ways.

One, it encourages AI witch hunts and, at the same time, reinforces the idea that genAI usage can be reliably detected. Never mind that it can’t be. Never mind false positives. At this point in time, accusations of AI usage are pretty much career-ending events, especially for indie authors. The public might be willing to accept the likelihood of false allegations as a “necessary evil”, but for an author like me, it’s a terrifying prospect. There is still a TON of debate over the accuracy of AI detection tools like the ones used by The New York Times, and there are plenty of people who don’t even bother with tools and make accusations on the basis of things like em dash usage and general “vibes”.

Two, it makes readers less inclined to give indie authors a chance. I’ve seen countless comments online (in discussions of this case) from people saying they won’t read books from new authors written after 2021 or 2022 because of the potential use of genAI. Basically, all indie authors are being tagged as automatically suspect, regardless of their stated stance. You can imagine what it feels like to read that, as someone who is publishing books in 2026 and who is staunchly on the anti side.

Three, it de-incentivizes the disclosure of actual genAI use. Again, I’ve seen countless comments from pro-AI writers to the effect that they will continue to hide/not disclose their usage so as to circumvent the anti-AI sentiment of the reading public. This will only serve to reinforce the negative feedback loop of the previous issue. Ironically, it will also undoubtedly result in many AI-generated books flying under the “radar” while other, non-AI generated books will be cancelled for suspected AI use. Fun, fun, fun.

Coming on top of everything else, it’s enough to make one want to quit writing altogether. Well, quit publishing, at any rate.

All that being said, I have a lot of sympathy for readers too – I am one myself, after all. It’s a sh*tshow out there and one thing is clear: the corporations will not be riding in to save us from the mess. They’ll just make the mess, messier.

Friday Feels #38

It was a Dickens kind of week but we’re gonna focus on the positives. My book is out and early feedback has been wonderful. I managed to push my self-doubt aside just enough to make room for some writing – early work on a new gothic-flavored supernatural mystery. I’m in discovery mode with this project, so I have no idea where it’s going, if anywhere. But, frankly, any distraction from everything going on in the world these days is very, very welcome.

Stay positive, dammit!

Big breath.

Positive: it … only snowed once this week? *head desk*

Work was extra busy for me this week, but I managed to keep my phone screen time under control in the evenings and decompress in better ways. With books and scrapbooking. I finished EF Benson’s Secret Lives and read Michiko Aoyama’s What You Are Looking For Is In the Library. The latter was a recc from a friend, and a nice companion to a book I read last week, Hika Harada’s Dinner at the Midnight Library. I’ve been getting into Japanese fiction lately, and these are two cozy, slice-of-life stories that both feature libraries. Would def recommend if you’re looking for something sweet, warm, and low stress.

I’ve been getting back into scrapbooking and collage-making with a vengeance and this week I found the perfect evening relaxation activity combo: scrapbooking + reruns of Midsomer Murders. Episodes are the perfect length (about 1.5 hours) to unwind and do a couple of pages in my commonplace book. A friend sent me a little care package of scrapbooking ephemera (I love that word!), which was so fun to sort through and add to my growing pile of materials. I am probably going to write a separate post about my scrapbooking adventures because I think it’s a fun, accessible hobby to try – and no, you don’t need a ton of expensive supplies to get started.

The kids were on Spring Break this week, but everything conspired against us/them having too many fun adventures. The weather was crappy (did I mention the snow?) and my son came down with a bad cold, so they mostly hunkered down at home. Not ideal, but I have to admit that I do love having everyone close by and low-key hanging out. I did some math this week and realized that in five years, both of my kids are going to be technically adults. FIVE YEARS! That’s wild to me because (a) part of my brain still thinks of them as babies, and (b) that’s such a short time. We gotta make the most of it … not because I’m worried that they’re going to flee the nest at the earliest opportunity, but because I know they’re going to have their own lives to lead, even if they’ll still share the same roof with us.

Ugh, I think I have something in my eye …

*sniff*

Anyone got a time machine handy?

Have a great weekend — and Happy Easter to everyone celebrating!

Things I’m Currently Obsessed With

I’m still on my positive-vibes-only kick, so let’s talk about random things I’m currently obsessed with (that makes life feel a little more bearable). Be warned: when I say ‘random’, I mean RANDOM.

Lyons Irish Breakfast Tea

The thing I have to explain upfront is that I am a former Diet Coke girlie (that is to say, a decades-long DC ride-or-die) who switched to coffee last year. Coincidentally, or not, it happened around the time I got serious about writing, and coffee is now ingrained in my writing routine. For most of that time, I’ve stuck to iced coffee, but recently I’ve rediscovered the joy that is Irish Breakfast tea – specifically Lyons.

Making regular (hot) coffee at home is a hassle to me*, but brewing a cup of Lyons is easy peasy – it comes in disposable tea bags. And if you steep it for 3-4 minutes, it’s almost as dark and flavourful as coffee, except less bitter, which I prefer. I add milk (the protein-rich kind, which is almost like cream) and one of my coffee syrups (see below) as sweetener and voila: the perfect cup of hot not-coffee that feels like drinking coffee (to someone who loves iced coffee, LOL!).

If you’re tempted to try this at home, I cannot emphasize enough how important it is to make sure you get Lyons, not some other brand, if you want that put-hair-on-your-chest experience. I have been reliably informed that other brands’ Irish Breakfast teas are much weaker (so that you would need several tea bags to get the same amount of flavour).

[*I don’t have the equipment and don’t want to spend money on it. I buy the Costco brewed coffee for making my iced coffee, and that’s the kind of convenience I love.]

Coffee Syrups

This goes along with the item above, but also with my love of iced coffee. I used to put flavoured creamer in my coffee to sweeten it (and I like it very sweet, lol) until I discovered coffee syrups. Sugar-free and fun flavours? Sign me up! Plus, if you buy them at Winners like I do, they’re hella cheap. The brand I buy most often is Matteo, and my fave flavours are Caramel Chocolate, Peanut Butter Cup, and Dark Chocolate Orange. I tell you, I have the palate of a toddler. Peanut Butter Cup goes really well with my Lyons tea, but I think I’m going to try some sort of Mocha flavour next, to really give my Irish Breakfast that extra coffee kick.

Nest Lychee Rose Perfume

I have always had a weakness for rose-forward perfumes. It’s one of my fave notes. A while back, I spent many months searching for the perfect ‘jammy rose’ perfume. I ended up with a few fragrances I love, but none that completely scratched that itch. Well, a few weeks ago, I randomly found a travel size of Lychee Rose at Winners for $17 and thought “why not try it.” Readers, I’m obsessed. It’s the perfect sweet (but not cloying) jammy rose. I spray it before bed most nights now, and it dries down overnight to a beautiful soft rose so I wake up smelling like … well, you get it.

I’m so happy that I snapped up two (travel) vials of this when I had the chance, because I have a feeling the first one won’t last long. And the downside of Winners is that you’re never guaranteed to find the same amazing bargain twice. As much as I love this perfume, I’m not sure I can bring myself to pay full retail price for it 🙁

But let this be your PSA: do not sleep on Winners’ beauty and make-up aisles. It’s where I buy almost all of my skincare because you can find everything from sold-at-Sephora brands to Korean brands for a fraction of the price.

Ring Stack

With the exception of my engagement ring/trinity band combo, I don’t really wear any jewelry on a daily basis. Or, I should say, I didn’t used to. Because now I have this stack … and I am obsessed. I never take it off*. The gold (wedding) band belonged to my dad, and he gave it to me after my mom passed away to keep for my kids; I started wearing it and now it’s too sentimental to take off.

The other two rings I thrifted on the same day and I have a feeling they were always meant to be worn together. I mean, they just look made for each other, don’t they? The only markings on them is a 925 stamp, but I suspect they are vermeil or gold-filled because the finish hasn’t worn off even a little bit after months and months of daily use (even after I stopped taking them off in the shower). I’m especially impressed that none of the small stones in the band have fallen out or been damaged; they go all the way around, and in the past I was always worried about damage with this particular style. I only wish I knew the designer or brand who made them because I love both the aesthetic and the quality so, so much.

These rings have completely sold me on the benefits of fine/semi-fine jewelry. I love being able to wear pieces every day without worrying about taking them off to do daily activities, or else risking tarnish and damage.

[* unless my fingers are doing their weird thing where they randomly shrink in size and then I have to take all my rings off because they swivel too much and drive me crazy. I think it’s connected somehow to my Reynaud’s, but I’m not sure. Aren’t bodies weird and grand?]