It’s been over a month since I published my debut novel, so I thought it was a good time to reflect on my experiences (so far) as an indie author. If some of you are thinking about writing your first book, I hope you will find some inspiration, along with realistic sample data, for your own journey.
I’ll start with the amazing bits.
People – dozens of them, at least – have read my book. They. Have. Read. My. Book. The words I wrote down. It still blows my mind a little, every time I think of that. Better yet, people* enjoyed it! The messages I’ve received have been so reassuring: for the right reader**, A Party to Murder offers exactly the kind of experience I set out to create. I love hearing readers’ impressions and thoughts about the plot and the characters, and seeing my creations through their eyes.
Lately, I have been trying really hard to stay away from reviews posted online. Reviews are for other readers, not authors, and I don’t want to get hung up on ratings and rankings. [More on that in a minute.] But, like most writers, I struggle with the push-pull of wanting to know readers’ reactions, while at the same time, not wanting to be unduly distracted by others’ opinions. ‘Not every book is for every reader’ is a mantra I have to repeat to myself more and more, as reviews and ratings continue to pile up. I try to look at all of them, regardless of the number of stars, as evidence of my book’s journey out in the world.
From the outset, I had pretty modest ambitions for A Party to Murder – a debut novel from an unknown author – and I am glad for that. I was able to meet my sales goals and feel a modicum of accomplishment from that. It helped to offset some of the inevitable disappointment that has cropped up. Sales tapering off, reviews trickling in very slowly, lots of radio silence, hazards and challenges of marketing and promotion in an over-saturated market, uncertainty about the outlook of my future books. Being a self-pubbed author is not for the faint of heart (any more than trying to be traditionally published is; it’s only different). One of the hardest parts of the process has been to stay the course in terms of purpose for writing, against the noise of external influences, voices, opinions.
By necessity, I have to keep a toe in bookish and writerly spaces, and they are a constant source of self-doubt. What I mean by that is: readers want all kinds of different things from the books they read, and writers want all kinds of different things from the books they write. It is quite easy to be swayed by their views. Ultimately, though, letting yourself be guided by other people’s values and priorities is a recipe for disappointment and disillusionment. I’ve had to re-learn – over and over – the importance of charting one’s own course, even when one must do so against the current. It’s vital … but not easy. Oh, no.
You know what’s easy? Getting down in the dumps and languishing there. Having done a fair bit of that already, I’m resolved to stay out of it moving forward.
I have a lot of things to look forward to! My second book, Murder Takes a Holiday is coming out in just over a month, and I am very excited about it. I just finished working with my editor on the final revisions, and she told me she thought it was even better than A Party to Murder. As I’m going through the proof-reading now, I must say that I agree with her 🙂 And next up will be my first standalone fantasy mystery – a fun little genre-bending cozy romp, if I do say so myself. Currently titled The Mysterious Affair at Gaunt Hall, it’s tentatively scheduled for a June release … which means I have a LOT of work to do in the coming months. And that’s not accounting for the other 3 books in various stages of completion or the couple new books I’m hoping to write this year. Sounds a bit mad? It probably is. Wish me luck, lol!
At this point, you may be asking, “Adina, why are you doing all this?” And, honestly? The answer is: because I can. My books are like little trophies I make for myself – for the joy of making them and the joy of seeing them, looking all pretty and polished, on my shelf. And, yes, also for the joy of knowing that even a handful of people might read them and have a blast. Anything else is gravy.
That feels like a good note to end on 🙂
But let me open up the floor: if you have questions about self-publishing (or writing your first book), don’t be shy. Leave a comment or send me a message, and let’s talk!
* The ones I know about anyway, at least.
** Some who loves Golden Era murder mysteries as much as I do.